I have to write it down !!!!
I have to write it down !!!!
I have to write it down !!!!
I have to write it down !!!!
Every time I do, say, or think of something related to me being okay, I have to write it down. I have started carrying paper and pens with me every where I go. If I write it down, it will get out of my head. Unfortunately then I am onto the next obsessive thought. Which then needs to be written down.
I am so glad the medication I take for OCD is working. Can you imagine where I’d be if it wasn’t. I know where I’d be. I’d be very upset with the word count of this post. That is where I’d be. Damnit I had to bring that up didn’t I? I think 4 more words would lessen the anxiety. 143, I can work with 143. Add them together and you get 8. 8 is a good number. Damnit now I have 157. Add them together and you get 13 which is 4 when added together. Four is a very good number. But that leaves me with 179. I can’t do anything with 179. I must keep writing words or deleting ones I already have to make an acceptable number.
See, changing Obsessive Thought Thursday to How My Mind Works Wednesday is sounding like a very good idea. It would be more general than just O.T.T. Less limited than just obsessive thoughts. I could really let you know how this mind works or doesn’t work. Then maybe someone out there could help explain things and fix it.
I think the best thing to do right now (so I can end this post) is to challenge the word count. I have been spending a lot of time challenging the OCD and have survived each and every time. Maybe it is time to challenge it again so I can hit publish. Then deal with anxiety I may or may not feel.
Now if I could just get this picture where it belongs all will be right with the world.
Reblogged this on Big Red Carpet Nursing and commented:
Fascinating!
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thanks. Now that I see you reblogged this, I can stop obsessing over why I am getting so many likes all of a sudden. 🙂
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It’s nice when it actually make a difference!
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Thanks for your great description! – Greg
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Your welcome, I have a new one every week.
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I’ve found with all illnesses, individual examples vary considerably in countless ways. OCD is no exception. Examples are extremely useful, as they help others get a better idea of the range of possibilities. Otherwise, one person becomes the diseases in their mind.
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Reblogged this on rennydiokno.com.
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thanks I am glad you liked it enough to do that.
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I wonder if my boyfriend would do this in the ball pit. He’s just under the clinical threshold for OCD. I am clinically diagnosed ADHD. We are quite the odd couple.
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My husband is half deaf and I am half blind. I think that makes us perfect together.
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